Written by Carlos Ayala
Growing up in Brooklyn,Ny during the crack era was an interesting experience for me. East New York was one of the most dangerous areas to live in at the time. Now, the crack hit all of our neighborhoods, even the white ones. But it seemed to have it’s deadliest effect in my neighborhood. The one with all the Blacks and Latinos. As a so-called “Latino” my experiences were the same as the Blacks. We lived in the same neighborhood, same schools, shopped at the same stores, danced to the same music and we smoked the same crack rock. My Mother was one of these people, she was half black herself, an Afro-Latina. She was a wonderful woman, until the day she met crack cocaine. That drug turned her and everyone else who touched it into a totally different person. She went from honest and hard working to a lying thief who could care less where her children were. My father, of course…absent. So fucking what? I had a step-father. And he liked “the sauce” a little too much. And I sure as fuck ain’t talking about Salsa music either. So my story is almost the same for many in my building. I don’t wish to go into history of my family right now; I’m simply setting you the picture of my experience. So for me, I experienced a lot of Police brutality from NYPD. Growing up, I was subject to searches for no reason, I was provoked into fights by plain clothes cops, I watched my good friend get shot by the Police in a case of mistaken identity. Nice to know, those Police officers are serving and protecting…………………………………………………….. That’s sarcasm, you can’t hear it because I’m typing it. I’ve seen Police dealing for dealers, taking out their rivals; I’ve seen a lot of underhand, dirty shit from a lot of people in my life, in Brooklyn back then; it was both expected and accepted. So I developed a keen sense of reading people because of this environment, as do many others; It’s what they call “Street Smarts”. The hardest thing to watch was my own Black brothers and Brown brothers in the streets killing each other. Killing each other over the rights of who gets to poison the community for the “man”. Survival is the story for many out on them corners back then, it was a job. It wasn’t no glamorous shit for the hustlers. It was however, for those on the top of the food chain; that is until someone puts a bullet in their head to take their spot. And on and on and on and on it goes. I seen many dead bodies in my lifetime yet, I never signed up to go to war. And let me tell you, those people catching bodies; (slang for killing) most of them wasn’t no Police. That’s real talk right there. Something people from the outside don’t see without a badge on. Back then violence became a thing, the streets became war zones for gladiators. Prisons were like training camps. After awhile the hood became so used to the brutal violence that we started using it as a badge of honor. It wouldn’t take much at certain points for a young man to shoot a young man over something small as a wrong look. It happened like that, killing became a right of passage in the hood almost it seemed. We just sat back and accepted that was our reality.
So what does this have to do with the Black Lives Matter movement?
It has everything to do with it. Because if you gonna name a movement THAT. I expect to see you hold everybody accountable. Yet more Black men are pulling the trigger on Black men than Police. That’s a fact that’s damn near world wide if you want to be completely honest. Brothers are doing the same in Puerto Rico, Venezuela, Columbia, Dominican Republic, Haiti, Jamaica, Central and South America, South Africa, Ethiopia, The Congos,etc. I mean for real, in 1994 a tribe of Black men in Rwanda slaughtered over a Million Black men, women and children over really nothing at all. So, making a movement that says “BLACK LIVES MATTER” Makes no sense, when Black men are the ones killing Black men the most. We know this, we also know Black people are capable of living peacefully and successful. So, the problem lies of course in opportunity and environment. If the ghetto wasn’t intentionally flooded with drugs and illegal firearms…we wouldn’t have this problem. Yes genocide at the hands of government is present. But at what extent do you not understand you have the ability to not do these things? I never had to take a life, I simply was smart enough to avoid those situations. I knew who not to hang around, however I was acquainted with many of these people; But I was never involved in anything that could get me caught up. In fact just associating with the people I grew up with was enough to get me caught up. I just never had the need to flex on people unless it was self defense. I have whooped a lot of asses, but never had to kill nobody. I use my street smarts, In fact, I’m comfortable in any hood because I know how not to get caught up. W.hen I was a kid and I fought for my respect, I never did it in front of people, I would always catch my enemy alone and then fight them. If they backed down, I made a point and walked away. But for a lot of people in my generation that grew up where I did and similar places, we always had that enviroment just coaxing us to it. When it comes to violent crime, for Latinos and Hispanics we are killing each other as well a lot of us Latinos are Black too, just different cultural background, so we end up against the same odds. Black men, I know the threat for most Black men is other Black men 9 out of 10 times. Racism exists. But sorry Black people, you are racist too. So-Called Latinos, Hispanics, racist too. Asians, yall motherfuckers are surely as racist as the Indians and the Arabs and the Jews as well. That ‘only whites can be racist’ shit is stupid as fuck and only a dumb-ass could believe that.Let’s be real, There are more opportunities than ever out there, nobody can hold you back anymore. In fact, at the risk of sounding like a Neo-Nazi conservative, Blacks or Latinos or anyone considered to be a “Minority” (Including Women) are much more likely to be hired than a White male these days. And that’s not xenophobic, racist paranoia either. It is cold hard fact. We don’t see discrimination on the level we did 20-30 years ago. A lot of us remember those days and we have passed that down to our children, so they have the mindset that that’s how it is, regardless to the truth. We see more Black men and Women and more Latinos in Universities and obtaining higher paying jobs. We are advancing, but not because of empty rhetoric, rap music or because of pointless protests. It’s because people who want shit, get shit done. They don’t find excuses they find solutions. And when it comes to Black Lives Matter, It’s senseless to even try to make a case for Police brutality, when most of our neighborhoods are fucked up and our children run wild and we kill each other and shoot the damn place up. We are living like animals, You know it’s the damn truth! And of course not all of us are like that. But we still got a large number of our people acting a damn fool still. I get we are all frustrated, but damn! Get out there and make things better. It starts with us all individually, you have a choice. If you think you can justify crime to me, yeah…not going to work. I chose not to do crime and I just got a job. If one wasn’t enough I got two. I did what I had to do to make money, but I didn’t do it illegally. Shit, it’s an excuse and a crutch and you white liberals would never understand because you never understood poverty. All of these ANTIFA and white BLM people are from well to do families, and most of them are spoiled brats rebelling against their parents. In a few years if most of them graduate, they will become everything they stood against. And for Black folks that did not come from the “Hood” you don’t get a free pass to say shit because you fail to understand as well. Yes, not every Black or Latino neighborhood is a slum (conservatives). But most slums in most large cities happen to have slums with Blacks and Latinos. And that’s the place where it usually all goes down. Not to say it doesn’t in some Suburbs and Boone-docks. But it goes with the territory. But before you say Black Lives Matter and you’re ready to thrash someone’s small business because you’re a asshole…..next time a drive by is pulled in the trap..u better do the same to the Traphouse. Oh, but ….but…. yep. Stay the fuck in school.
But now the question becomes solution. What can you do about Police brutality? What can you do about the drugs the guns and the killing being done? Listen folks, this movement isn’t doing anything to solve nothing. All this group does is vent frustrations, causing confusion and only raising more questions. Then with the persuasions of the left wing and the salt in the wounds from the right wing, what you get is a bunch of confused pissed off people. It is my firm belief that the BLM movement and ANTIFA and even the ALT RIGHT are all being controlled by the same people. Their goal is to cause confusion and hopefully get a good enough reaction to justify real oppression. Yeah, the kind of oppression that you cannot even conceive. Or maybe these people are hoping that we will all destroy each other. And if you think that is the solution, then you are part of the problem. Let me break down something to you below….
This is a breakdown of certain groups in our country and the traits they all seem to share
KKK/NEO NAZI /ALT RIGHT BLM ANTIFA
- uses violence and threats to further agenda,
- claims to be a victim,
- claims superiority,
- uses propaganda to recruit,
- uses flags to represent group,
- highly intolerant
- No intention of dialogue
- convinced their way is the only way.
- Are funded secretly or openly by Political advocate groups
- highly intolerant to those who are not in group,
- uses misinformation to further agendas
See the pattern? On the surface all are different groups right? Maybe not so different after all. Seems to me the stupid people are still in control, and aint no President gonna be able to fix it. Empty rhetoric and catch phrases and riots and protests are not going to fix anything either. Stop asking your so-called oppressor for help and just find the means to do it yourself. You’ll get it done a lot faster.